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Friday, July 10, 2009 @ Friday, July 10, 2009

Friday, 10/7

Yo, peeps!

Every Friday, as usual, I'm at my dad's house. Was super tired when i got back from school. Slept for 2 hours in the afternoon. Woke up around 5 and start ironing my clothes and all to get ready and head over to my dad's house. Still SO TIRED!

And sorry, babes Fas and Tiq, cant assist you guys with your D&T today. I'm super exhausted! I'll help you on Monday, for sure! I'm super bored right now. Have absolutely no idea on what to blog about. But anyways, had my 'N' Level Oral on Tuesday and i SWEAR i didn't do well cause i was the 1st to go and i was nervous! AAAHHH! Dammit! The conversation part was super difficult for me seiy! But let bygones be bygones. I'm SO glad that oral is over. Next up, Malay oral! Ugh! And once again, I'm the 1st to go. Good luck to me!

Nowadays, my blog hasn't been filled with photos, AT ALL! I want photos to be showering my blog! Argh! Its ok, soon, soon, photos will be everywhere! HAHA! Guess I'm gonna stop here. You people must be bored reading all my blabbering. So, CIAO!

I'm glad we're fine
Honestly, i don't give a damn to what people has to say about us.
What i know is, i trust you, not 100% though.
I hope our friendship goes a long way.
If it doesn't, I'll accept it with an open heart.
But for now, i just wish that we carry on like this.
Cause my heart is not ready to face reality yet.
Its the truth and i hope you people understand.
Its up to me to decide and its up to you people to just guide me, that's all.
I totally appreciate the help of you people even though it sucked, sometimes.
For now, only Allah will know how the next chapter of our storybook will be like.
Amin.

Yo, people!
I'm back again! HAHA!
Guess I'll continue blogging from here.

This year is sucha crucial year for me plus all the people who will be taking their N or O levels this year. But no matter what, I'm gonna strive and hope for the best! I desperately wanna make it to Sec 5! Mum said i CAN. I just gotta be confident and believe that i can do it. I'll try, ok, Mum? I don't wanna disappoint you plus the family.

People sometimes ask me. Why do i wanna go sec 5? Usually I'll say "Oh, i wanna go sec 5 cause its better and all, bla bla bla"
BUT actually, they don't know the real story so now, i wanna type it out so that you people can know the real truth.

SO, the reason why i wanna go sec 5 is...

-I wanna make my family proud
-I wanna have an O level cert
-Truthfully, i don't wanna go ITE, instead, go Poly and save a year
-Both my brothers had already messed up their education. 1st bro, quit school at the age of 16 and became outta control after that.
2nd bro, graduated ITE but decided to continue working in the F&B industry instead of his education.

There are some other reasons but i don't think its necessary for you peeps to know about it, sorry. How i wish i was clever. Really need to start revising from now. If i don't make it to sec 5, i will of course feel a sense of regret and sorrow cause I'll disappoint my Mum who always has high hopes for me. But i know she'll understand and I'm so glad i have her as my mum. But for now, Mum, I'll promise you I'll give my best shot! When i get my results and show it to you, i want you to be smiling the first thing you see my results. I don't want you to frown and nag at me for not doing well. That just show how much i disappoint you all this while. I don't wanna be like my brothers who have drifted away even though they have an idea on what to do in their lives. I wanna be different, unique, you know. Guess this is all you people need to know. I don't know why but tears is gathering inside my eyes right now.

Nights, peeps!
Hope all of you has decided on what to do in your life and better not be regretting it once you have made that decision.

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